Questions of My Thoughts (Even My Thoughts Have Questions)
 
 

 

 

Text Box: Do you ever miss me in the way you would miss your breath if you didn’t have it***Is there ever a moment in the day when you stand in silence and realize you’re part of a bigger experience***When was the last time someone left you speechless, amazed to be in their presence***Surely, God lives inside this person in a special way***Was today the day your life was due to change but you woke up late and missed your calling***Will the God of all Things give you a second chance tomorrow morning***Or was it as fleeting as the thought you can almost put your finger on but then it slips away into nothingness***And tell me does the child you saved does he know he almost never was and that this knowledge seeped into his memory and today he’s troubled and angry for no specific reason***Do you know Text Box: there was a night you died in your sleep and God thought better of it and gave you life again***A vague recollection stayed with you the entire day but never made it into a realization that God watched over you all through the night***The one who sleeps besides you at night has it been a wonderful life full of kids and memories that has filled your life with happiness***Or has it been a sacrifice to do the right thing because that’s how you were raised and not a day has gone by you haven’t wanted to flee your life and find all your hopes and dreams you left behind…Is finding love truly necessary to be happy or would feelings of deep affection, liking be a comparable emotion*** Beyond the peripheral do you ever wonder if there’s life of another kind taking place***If you pushed back the curtain would we all be astounded at the beautiful life being lived and not humans merely existing, free of all the daily stress Text Box: we inhabit everyday***The girl who just walked by not much too look at on this rainy day but any other day you would have paid attention and maybe she could have been your future wife***And maybe if you could’ve seen her heart as clearly as you stripped her naked your lust would be replaced by love and the lonely man you will become will never get a chance to live because love has found you, despite yourself…Do you think God knows you stayed awake last night waiting for him to call you because you had a few things on your mind you wanted discuss, but he never came and you fell asleep***He came, as he always does, he watches over all his children as they sleep***The demons of the night that go unseen shy away from your soul because God is standing vigil***When a soul dies is it somehow trapped in time because of living an unfulfilled life***Does Text Box: peace come when loved ones who mourn their death touch a special memory allowing the dead God’s final grace ***So it occurs to me that that painconfusionlost disillusionangstforlorndespairanger hopelovequestioning that lives in my words when read by a stranger/friend can they walk in my shoes for a moment and fly with me***The thought came to me that maybe while we sleep and inhabit our dreams that we are living our real lives***And the lives we live everyday is actually a dream***My dreams are beautiful how I wish I could sleep forever. Dean Jéan-Pierre 11-10-05 7:25pm